Lila: Having a disability in stand up comedy, I feel like it is a responsibility for me to talk about it. I really want to normalise disability because for a long time, the word itself disabled used to make me really uncomfortable. My sweet baby. We’re about to look through some of my outfits for what I’m going to wear tonight. We’ll let her go. All right, let’s get to it. I’m excited. Because these are the shoes I’m going to wear tonight. I can barely walk. I look like a baby giraffe in them. But it’s worth it on this day. I’m so excited. My name is Lila Hart. I’m a stand up comedian, as tall as an LA parking meter. And I live in LA. Oh, no. I have Spina bifida. Oh, sorry. No, I already messed up. Oh my God Definitely being smaller in a world of average height people, I’ve really learned to I guess like adapt in a way but this is actually this is really cool. This dress. This dress is the dress that I wore the very first time I did stand up. I am as tall as this microphone stand how about that. 4 6″. Even when I drive, I sit on a booster seat. Fortunately, I have really long legs because my spina bifida, it makes my torso really small. But my legs are like normal. So which is kind of funny. Spina bifida is basically like being born with how I describe it as being born with a spinal cord injury. You’re born with a hole in your back and the doctors have to go in and try to close it. I had seven major operations, most of all of which were before the age of 14. In and out of the hospital, as I got older. And all my friends are dating people. And I literally had guys tell me, “Lila, you’re really pretty, but I can’t date you because you’re a midget.” And that really hurt me. When I was in college. All I wanted to do was be in a sorority, right? Like, that’s the ultimate form of acceptance. None of the houses wanted me. And it was at a party and this drunk girl came up to me and she was like, you know, ‘Lila I feel so guilty. I just have to tell you, I’m so sorry that none of the houses wanted you because we didn’t want to be known as a house with the crippled girl.’ And, you know, that obviously, like sucked and broke my heart. I am so far removed from the person that I was in high school. Because of the level of confidence that I’ve grown through, stand up comedy All I wanted to do back then was to be accepted, right? Like to be part of a group. And then you moved to LA and you’re like, what can I do to stand out? And it’s like, well, you know, joke’s on you again. crippled girl wins. It’s fine. Crippled comedy. Fantastic. Like a magical unicorn I have long legs. Magical unicorn more like my little pony. My boyfriend does a lot for me, actually. He carries bags, like he reaches things for me. So I’m very lucky that I have somebody like that in my life. Eric and I met because we’re both stand up comedians, we kind of, you know, saw each other in the scene. When I’m with Eric, I forget that I have spinal bifida, I don’t even feel small. So tonight is the premiere of small talk live, my mom is going to be there. So we’re going to have a mom panel where we have the moms come on stage, and I do a little interview segment with them. Same size as an LA parking meter. Yeah. Lila: I do a little dance before I’m getting on stage. Like it’s just like a little like. Silly like kind of dance that I do. If people are like what are you doing? Like I’m about to perform. And I’ll just like kind of get like silly to kind of to loosen up, away. Even if there’s no music, I’ll just like, you know, do a weird little dance. Okay, I got a little too into the pre show dance so excited. A little bit nervous. Oh, goodness, the teeth. I’m a little bit nervous. But more excited. I’m just really happy that my mom’s here. When I’m on stage, and I make people laugh by sharing a story that used to cause me so much pain, and that I can go on stage and I can talk about it. Like it’s like I can say the words out loud that used to hurt me so badly. And I can connect with the audience and I can almost in a way it’s like I can make it see how silly it is to use these words and make fun of somebody I don’t know. For a long time, the word disabled made me so uncomfortable because I didn’t want to accept that I had a disability. I didn’t want to accept that I had spina bifida. It made me feel like you know there’s something wrong with this word when in reality, there’s nothing wrong with being disabled. Presenter: Lila Hart. Lila: When I was in college my Professor laughed at me when I said I wanted to have my own talk show well, shows him now. In fact I have to try and work 10 times as hard and I feel like that should be celebrated. You know, it’s like, yeah, I’m disabled. And I’m also sexy, and I’m also fine. And I also have a great boyfriend. They already lost him too I was going to bring her out in my liberace bag. I could still go on to be one of the greatest comedians of my generation, having spinal bifida and being disabled and all. I’ve got a messed up back you guys know I have spina bifida, so you know what I mean I can’t lift things. And I know I look big today, it’s because I got these giant shoes on make me look like a baby giraffe. My ultimate dream would be the first disabled comedian to host SNL. and that is what I would love to do some day. Now I’m on stage saying disabled, crippled midget, all of the words that used to give me so much anxiety and now I just feel so free. Small Talk Live Nothing upsets me midget, I’m the baddest midget so.